mum

Last friday night, i had such a bad stomach ache that i was heaving upon breathing and sprawling in bed. Acid churned in cycles and the pain was so great that i even told God He could take me then. Sweat poured as i cringed and molten-lava spewed out in multiple sessions of diarrhea-attacks. As i laid exhausted, mum came near and prayed for me. It was 2am and i was worried that she has not slept as i knew sleep was very important for her. But she said "it is ok, mama can still smile cause God helped me sleep in the morning already and sleep is not everything". Later, she then used an old fashion method to ease stomach pain by rubbing a hot water bottle on my abdomen warmly. She said it was her childhood remedy and it did help for awhile :) I asked her jokingly why did she love me and she also joked back, "if not love who?" Implying that family members are the people we love. I still suffered that night, as the fiery volcano decided to give out it's last spew; but by the next morning i was feeling better :) And i just want to say i really appreciate my mum and thank her for her heart of love for God firstly, herself, family and people.

This time coming back has also been so fulfilling, as i see my mum change in God. She is starting to open up again to people and care for them. She also shares God with anyones she meets and always tell me about their good points. She may not be agile physically like other mums, but she has this special heart and faith that can run like jaguar in the heavenly race. She also prays alot for our family and her friends, and mind you prayer is real and powerful! and it takes time and a real heart of discipline and love to sow in prayer :) Thats mighty-muscles wuhoo that you see, when u put on 3D-faith-glasses on :) haha. I am still learning to love my mum too and humbled by her authenthic life of faith. I am also learning that we should not put too high expectations on people (as everyone is different) but give them grace+time to change. (and not to what you want them to be, but to what God wants them to be, and in His beautiful time). In addition to that, never give up on prayer. God really works. And AHEM AHEM..may i not forget that the lady in the mirror with very puffy hair currently haha needs to ask God to change her own life too :):) haha. Tho we are all outwardly wasting away, may we be renewed daily inside.. to like what im seeing in my mum now, a transformation..not just a mere human rehabilitaion, but a miraculous renewal..showing forth the truth in 2Corinthians 5:17.. "Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, he is a new creation; old things have passed away; behold, all things have become new." :)

May we appreciate our family members this season of reunion and have a blessed CNY :)

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picture story: haha i used to wonder why is there always a blue pillow on the floor?? and guess that it may have fallen off the bed. I even put it once into the cupboard cause it did not match the rest of the pillows on the bed (which has a red/pink theme) and nobody uses it. Lol, but cheekily every afternoon i will still find it there on the floor! haha little did i know and just discovered today.. that someone was kneeling down on it to pray.

blessed to have kneeling-praying parents, including dad. miss him very much and hope to see him soon :) MISS u one hundred.